Alone & Loneliness

It's no secret that with the current coronavirus, I've struggled with loneliness.  Today, I discovered that being alone doesn't always equal loneliness. And being with someone doesn't exempt you from experiencing loneliness.  It's definitely a mindset that transcends relationship status.
What's been your experience with loneliness? Is it tied to your love language? Drop your thoughts!!!

Corona Revelation: Everybody Needs Somebody

Dear God,

Please.  I’m letting it all out. In my humanness hear me and in my faith increase me. I am hurting emotionally & mentally. Heal. Your. Globe.  Amen.

The Bible says that in all our getting, we should get an understanding....so, I try to learn something from every season I go through. I guess I’ve spent the last three months enjoying life a little too much.  I’ve smiled more than I have over the last few months than I have over the last year.  I’ve enjoyed some solo traveling and life just seemed to have given me a break from the constant heartache and headache that I experienced for most of 2019.  Suddenly, the recent Coronavirus Pandemic has made me question all of the growth I thought I’ve achieved over the last year.  Seemingly, in an instant all my growth went out the window, based off of ONE SINGLE TEXT MESSAGE.  A one word text message, with two emoji’s sent me in a downward spiral that I have to admit....I was already ascending upon.  For weeks, I’ve tried to fight my way out of my feelings, just to be defeated today.  Honestly, I had been holding strong until today where I’ve been flooded with feelings and thoughts!  Today HAS NOT been good for me. I am extremely lonely which is not normal for me.  I just wish I could be held and feel safe. Is that too much to ask?  I’m naturally an affectionate person and physical touch is my primary love language. Unfortunately  with all this Rona going around I haven’t been getting that.

This season of confinement has bred a multitude of emotions. Isolation, fear, loneliness, grief, sadness and feeling like I’ve been forgotten...these are ALL real emotions. I’ve even felt “unprotected” or “unsafe”...these emotions hit different as a single adult. I spent time today talking to God about my real feelings about my single season. I was tired of covering up my real feelings before God, since he already knows anyways.  As a result, I’ve decided to re-evaluate some friendships and situationships that only benefit ONE person.  You ever want a person, but they don’t want you in the same kind of way (but pretend that they do)?  Babbbyyyyyyy, unrequited love cuts deep! The heart wants what the heart wants even if it hurts.  But that kind of love makes you feel like you're not good enough and UNworthy.  As I encourage myself, I wanted to encourage you too. Be encouraged... God sees your tears and knows your heart desires! He is not slack about his promises concerning you and remember ‘not yet’ does not mean NEVER!     

At the end of it all.... I’m just reminding myself to hold on...although it initially looked like a total loss, I’m grateful for the amount of growth in me BEFORE this pandemic hit.  It’s ok to grieve all that is happening around us.  Feel. Pray. Release. 💔💔💔💔