I waited by the phone for weeks, waiting for a simple "I'm sorry."
I looked at the phone 7 million times waiting for you to apologize, until I finally realized I was waiting on something I'd never get.
I realized while I was dying, you were surviving.
I realized while I was dying, you were surviving.
Every terrible thing you ever told me you did, I loved you anyway.
Every time you thought you completely failed, I loved you anyway.
Every time your heart broke or when you broke hearts, I loved you anyway.
When you didn't have a dime, and had nothing to give me BUT love, I loved you anyway.
When you "closed the door" and crushed my soul, I loved you anyway.
In spite of your flaws and insecurities, I loved you anyway.
I loved who you were, the REAL you.
I loved the "little boy" in you, who's Mom loved him unnaturally. How could I not, when my Dad loved me the same way?
You had....someone who loved you for YOU.
So, why would you hurt someone whose only intention was to love you?
I loved you as I loved myself. And I love myself as GOD loves me.
Love is something that doesn't need a body to be in love with.
It is a sacred feeling between two souls which is eternal.
God is love and Love is God. It is unconditional.
Knowing how deeply God loves me motivates me to love others the same, and that's how I love you.
Limiting love to romance, hinders our understanding of the emotion.
To have someone understand your mind is a different kind of intimacy.
YOU understood my mind, and that was apparent the day Anita Wilson played....
Finding someone to fill up space is easy.
Finding someone to have sex with, they are everywhere.
Finding someone to give you a new last name....that's simple to find.
But to have someone who REALLY gets you....that is the magical stuff.
What we shared was very magical and not another soul on this Earth would understand it. But they also can't take it away from me.
They may control whether or not you ever speak to me....and they may have even controlled whether or not you are allowed to be my friend.
But, They can't control my heart....and it still beats, for you.
I've exemplified the genuineness of my love. I did exactly as you asked, without hesitation---no matter the agony it caused me...and I shall continue to do so. Your happiness > mine.
I know I'm not your friend....but you are mine.
I love you, eternally.
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